Over the last 17 years I have spent a lot of time, energy, and money being involved int he Society for Creative Anachronism. Its a medieval recreation group of sorts, and it holds a somewhat dear place in my heart. That being said, I guess its never been what I wanted it to be and I just don't feel like I ever get out of it what I put in. I've spent the last couple of months making preparations for one of their major events, and took a weeks vacation from work to attend. Unfortunately after less than an hour at the event for reasons I'm not going to get into I was already ready to leave. Something I've looked forward too for months and it just turned into an unpleasant situation in a matter of minutes. If it was just a one time deal I would shrug it off and go on, but its not. If I honestly sit and think about it I can only remember two events that I have really enjoyed. Thats not a good track record for 17 years of my life.
As such I think its time to move on. Its been a part of me for so long its hard to just cut the ties, its going to be even harder since its the most important thing in my wife's life, so it will always be there around me, but I've had enough. There are more important and more fulfilling things that I can and should devote my time too. I know the decision is the right one, its just that it feels kind of bad, like breaking up with a girlfriend you really care for but you know deep down you just aren't right for each other.
So here it is, a declaration more to myself than anyone else, but Goodbye SCA, I'll miss you.